Not only am I having to deal with my mother being in the hospital and possibly dieing, now I am told it could take her 6 months to recover if she doesn’t have other complications. I’m not complaining just stressed about money again. I cant find work. I’m overqualified for everything but what I’m going to school for and anything else that requires a degree. The fun part is I’m under qualified for what I’m going to school for. So right now paid blogging and my online stuff is the only way I can make money. I live with my mom so I feel I need to pitch in now that she may be off work for a while.

To make matters worse. I made some changes to my forum Blogger love this weekend. I have been working on it for a few weeks and decided to see what my members thought. Just a few minutes ago I tried to log on and it told me I don’t have a password. So now I can’t log onto my own forum and I really have no idea what to do. I don’t want to delete everything as I have only a few members and some great topics I dont’ want to lose, but I think it may be the only way. I don’t know I’m so stressed out about everything right now. I’m just happy I didn’t do any advertising like I wanted to.

So now my sugar is dropping, I want to throw my computer against a wall because it keeps acting funny and I’m ready to break down in tears. I know I will get no help from my sisters with this because 2 of them life 2 hours away and have jobs they need to stay at my other sister has 3 kids and always avoids haveing to do anything and my little brother is only 14 and shouldn’t have to worry about it. Him though I can get to help with a few things like chores.

I just don’thavingdon’t know what to do. I have no support system here, I just feel so alone right now. I’ll get over it in about 10 minutes. You learn to deal with things quickly when you always have to do everything yourself.

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