Everything and Anything

My thoughts on everything around me

Having No Money Stinks

March 1st, 2009 at 10:28pm

I decided a few days ago to try out some singles sites to see if I could actually meet someone to do something with. I have had a few high school classmates contact me though face book and after seeing they are all married I realized I

need to step out there and do something, I’m not saying I need to get married but I haven’t been on a date in over 3 years so it’s time to step out of my comfort zone and see what happens. The sad part is you still can’t meet anyone online unless you have money.

I have like 5 people interested in me on 3 different sites, it would cost me over $300 to sign up for these services to talk to these people, so I am going to take down all of my profiles tomorrow as I don’t think I’ll get anywhere with them. I know a few sites let payed members contact, but no one close to me is a paid member and I don’t want a long distance relationship. I have tried to make that work and ended up in a huge mess that lasted 6 years and still did not qualify as a relationship or friendship.

I’m not sure what I’m going to do at this point, I tried concentrateing on school, but I can’t do much as I have to do most of my work at school and can’t drive down there, that means 5 days out of the week I still have some time on my hands. I have also tried writing a book, but I get so sad thinking about how to express being happy in these stories that I stop writeing. Really all it has made me think of is that I really don’t know what it’s like to be happy, I mean happy for more then a few minutes at a time. I have had a hard life, but it’s not the worst one out there I know so why can’t I express happy in words?

I know a man is not going to make me happy, but going out and feeling like I have a life will help. There is not a whole lot I can do I guess, living in a small town is great for a family, but horrible if your a single 26 year old women as most of your friends are married and have kids by now and don’t go out anymore.

I do have good news, I am going to try to lose weight again and was able to get on the treadmill for 20 minutes before my blood sugar dropped too low, so I’m getting somewhere! Now if only I can start making enough money to move to a city where more people are single!