I have lost all faith in mankind now. Even though I do thank the very few people who have helped me. Your help is appreciated. I’m sure many of you have been from Pay Per Post so yet another reason for me to love them.

Anyway, I have decided that unless you are thin, a model, have  a ton of money or you are some sort of sex icon you can’t get any help. We had the benefit for my mom yesterday and hardly anyone showed up. The sad thing is my mom would have if it had been for anyone else. I’m finding that being nice gets you know where, sex gets you everything and money gets you friends. It’s sad and sick but the truth.

I use to be very optimistic, now I just don’t see any reason to care about anyone anymore. It may just be the small town I live in where your name means everything and if your great great grandparents didn’t live here you are considered an outsider. This is why I want to get the hell out. They don’t care about anyone but the people in their group. I know the times are bad, but if everyone who my mother has helped over the last 10 years would donate a dollar, she would have enough money to pay all of our bills for a month, yep thats over 2000 people she has helped out. I’m not sure how much we raised, but I know it wasn’t that.

On top of everything my step dad is home for the 3rd day in a row. He’s a truck driver paid by mileage so he needs to go to work. It’s frustrating me even more. He could really care less about my mom, he just doesn’t like his job and wants to make sure I’m not spending all of his money, since I’m the one going out and paying bills.

I just feel like the whole world has let down my mom and now I’m the only one left to try to pick up the pieces.

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